Memories

Yatto … ada waktu juga buat nulis postingan ..
Udah beberapa hari ini pengen nulis tapi ga ada mood ama waktu (halah belagu bener gw)
Yah ada satu hal yang ternyata selama ini ga saya sadarin sampe disadarin ama orang laen.
Dan hal itu ternyata i never let anyone get too close!!
Waktu tau tentang itu agak kaget juga sih. Itu kan hal yang sering dibaca di novel and i never thought that it would happen to me. But it happened. Hal itu sepertinya bukan hal yang bagus. But i just can’t help it. Walopun sekarang udah tau tetep aja perasaan itu masih ada dan tampaknya koq ga bisa ilang ya .. hmmm ..
i’ve try to change this “habit” but it seems that there’s still no change at all. I still don’t feel very good at letting people near me … What should i do ??

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Beberapa bulan ini udah jarang (kalo ga mau dibilang sama sekali :P) nulis disini. Bener2 ga ada mood sih. Kalopun ada, pas di depan kompi moodnya langsung ilang dan ide buat nulis juga puff, ilang deh.
Sebenernya ada beberapa hal yang agak aneh (menurut saya sih). Yang pertama, entah kenapa koq jadi banyak orang yang minta diajarin nihongo ya. Padahal kan nihongo sendiri aja masih amburadul banget. Ngajarin orang itu tanggung jawabnya gede euy. Salah-salah bisa gawat tuh. Yang kedua, saya dapet banyak temen baru buat belajar nihongo dan beberapa waktu yang lalu dapet temen baru buat latihan english. Haha, how fun!!!!!! ^_^ Yang ketiga, my period bulan ini koq jadi tambah parah ya >_< Biasanya istirahat sehari juga sembuh tapi sekarang koq ampe 3 hari ga sembuh2. Malah tambah sakit punggung lagi. Waduh >_< Apa semakin tua bakal semakin sakit and parah ya?!

Oh iya, besok udah masuk bulan desember kan. Nah coba buat resolusi untuk taun depan ah. Apa ya ..
1. Harus jadi orang yang lebih sabar dari taun2 sebelumnya. (Ditaro pertama soalnya yang ini susah banget >_<)
2. Harus memperbanyak latihan both nihongo and english. Harus dipraktekin juga loh!!!
3. Nabung nabung and nabung. Itu tetep jangan lupa ya!!!
4. Try to pay more attention to my surrounding. Kalo ga ntar ada yang protes lagi.
Apa lagi ya … Baru kepikir segitu. Ntar ditambahin lagi deh.

My
friend, it’s been almost 2 months that you had to go to that far away
place and until now i am still thinking about you…a lot actually. I
remember the time when you always listen to what i had to say , even
though i know that you actually don’t really have the time for it.
You always give me support when i need it. Especially in bad times.

The
thing that i like you the most is you know that i don’t really like
the smoke that came from your cigarette and you appreciate it. Not
many people do that (well, at least among the people i know), and I
thank you for that. You know, now that you’re not around, i miss
those stupid smoke. I miss talking to you…really bad.

When
can we be able to talk or just hang out like old times? Soon i hope
…

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Minggu kemaren pas lagi jalan pulang, tiba-tiba gubrakkk … jatuh deh … Ga ada angin ga ada badai, tiba2 jatuh. Emang ada undakan sih tapi emang dasarnya lagi bengong kali ya .. Alhasil kaki keseleo DAN sampe hari ini masih sakit… Nasib.. Mau dapet apa ya ampe keseleo gini..Mana kaki masih bengkak lagi..Ya allah tolong sembuhkan kakiku … <praying mode on>

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Today i remember one song that i usually listen when i’m can’t concentrate well..
Here’s the song .. It’s Dashboard Confessional, The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most ..

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and covered with a perfect shell,
such a charming beautiful exterior.

Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes and perfect posture,
but you’re barely scraping by, but you’re barely scraping by.

This is one time, this is one time
that you can’t fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all, or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you’ve built to flee
the places that you’ve come to fear the most
is the place that you have come to fear the most.

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and hidden in the public eye.
Such a stellar monument to loneliness.
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
and perfect makeup but you’re barely scraping by,
but you’re barely scraping by.

that you can’t fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all, or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you’ve built to flee
the places that you’ve come to fear the most
is the place that you have come to fear the most.

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For the past month, I’m reading the last Harry Potter book, Harry potter and The Deathly Hallows. So far the book was great. You can be really into the book so badly that you don’t want to let it go until you finish it. Well, in my case I have to “fight” the urge to finish reading it quickly because I can’t just sit all day reading a book. My employer might “kick” me out of the company. Hehe Not mention my father will also “kill” me if I do that. So, so far I’ve already read the book until page 500 from it’s total 659 pages. Quite a long time to read just a 500 pages, right ? Well, everyday (Monday to Friday or Saturday I mean) I only have about an hour to read the book. It was during lunch hour and a little time before the working hour start. Actually I can read it at home, but by the time I got back home, I don’t have any mood to read it. My whole body scream against it. “Rest rest rest !!!!”

Ok, back to the book, I said the book was brilliant !! Just like Ron always said. (I love the character so much .. ) In this last book, there’s plenty of things that have a connection to the previous books. For example, (it will contain a bit spoiler I guess) when they, Harry, Ron, Hermione, and Ginny, were try to find and destroy the last horcrux, Ginny got poisoned by an enchanted snake during the process. She nearly couldn’t survive because even Madam Pomfrey couldn’t heal her, cause it all dark magic and all. But suddenly Harry remembered something about what Professor Slughorn did when Aragog died. That was part of the sixth book. If I think again, you might also noticed it, anything that happen in Harry’s life or everyone around him, any kind of information they acquired, turn out to be something that might be useful in the future. Just like this one. Because of what Harry remembered, Ginny was saved.

The writer made a great connection between each of the book. Even though you already read it all, you want, or maybe have, to read it again just because you want to find out or make sure of some event that connected to the seventh book. That’s what I felt.
From my opinion the book is worth to be read. Badly !! If you have any comment about the book or want to discuss about it with me, feel free to contact me or leave a comment here. And if you want to read the book, you also can contact me. Who knows, maybe I’ll be able to help you

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Pagi ini setelah baca blog nya erik, saya jadi keingetan cerita tentang guru yang udah beberapa hari ini pengen saya coba tulis di blog tapi belon sempet juga ..

Guru adalah pahlawan tanpa tanda jasa …
Itu satu penggal kalimat yang dari jaman SD selalu “diperdengarkan” kepada kita. Malah sampai ada lagunya kan ya ..
Tapi akhir2 ini saya berpikir, apa benar jaman sekarang kalimat itu masih berlaku ?
Saya emang sudah tidak lagi berhubungan langsung dengan guru2 “masa kini”, tapi kebeneran saya punya temen, sepupu, sodara yang masih berhubungan langsung dengan guru2 itu..
Ada satu cerita dari sebuah SD di daerah saya, suatu waktu di satu kelas ada ulangan mendadak. Pada waktu membagikan lembar soalnya sang guru berkata, “Ayo coba kerjakan soal2 ini sebisa kalian ya anak2. Hasilnya nanti untuk membatu nilai kalian yang sebelumnya. Tapi yang ikut les mah nilainya nanti ditambah.”
Apa maksud perkataan terakhir sang guru ? Apakah seorang guru pantas untuk mengatakan hal seperti itu kepada murid2nya? Bukankah dengan begitu sang anak tidak akan berusaha maksimal dalam tes itu karena mereka sudah tau kalau nilainya akan ditambah ?
Ada satu cerita lagi, kali ini dari daerah lain di kota saya. Suatu hari pada waktu pengambilan rapot sebuah smp swasta, sang ibu bertanya pada sang guru, “Bu/Pak, apa yang kurang dari anak saya ya? Saya lihat nilainya agak menurun dibandingkan dengan sebelumnya.” Sang guru menjawab, “Bagaimana ya bu..Dia badannya lemah sih..”
Sekali lagi, apa maksud sang guru berkata seperti itu? Bukankah seharusnya seorang guru mencoba untuk mendorong anak didiknya untuk menjadi lebih baik bagaimana pun keadaan sang anak itu ?
Terus terang saya benar2 kaget waktu mendengar cerita itu. Kaget dan agak gemes juga. Apa segitunya ya mereka? Saya bukannya ingin memojokkan guru atau menjelek2kan mereka. Engga sama sekali. Saya tau disuatu tempat disana, ada guru yang bener2 membantu, mendorong, menyemangati anak2 didiknya. Saya sadar saya bisa jadi seperti sekarang juga karena jasa2 para guru2 saya. Lagian saya rasa masih banyak guru2 yang bener2 berdedikasi pada profesinya. Waktu saya SD, SMP, SMA, sampe saya kuliah, ada guru yang bener2 berdedikasi sama apa yang dia kerjakan. Itu semua membuat saya heran dengan cerita2 tadi.
Apa sekarang rupiah bisa mengalahkan segalanya ?? Mungkin itu satu pertanyaan yang jawabannya sudah agak jelas ya, melihat semua kejadian di Indonesia kita yang tercinta ini .. Tapi, yah…sedih banget tau hal2 yang kaya gitu ..

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Just a little addition ..

I found a song that might go well with the earlier “wishes” post . . Here goes the lyrics ..

Monita - Kekasih Sejati

aku yang memikirkan
namun aku tak banyak berharap
kau membuat waktuku
tersita dengan angan tentangmu

*
mencoba lupakan
tapi ku tak bisa
mengapa… begini…

**
oh mungkin aku bermimpi
menginginkan dirimu
untuk ada disini menemaniku
oh mungkinkah kau yang jadi
kekasih sejatiku
semoga tak sekedar harapku

back to *

back to **

bila..
tak menjadi milikku
aku takkan menyesal
telah jatuh hati

back to **

semoga tak sekedar harapku..

Wow … terlalu cengeng ya :

Sampai kemaren belum terlalu sadar tentang hal yang satu ini ….
Ternyata …. NYARI CINCIN DI BANDUNG ITU SUSAH !!! HAHAHA ….
Dulu ga pernah nge-”khusus”-in nyari cincin sih … Jadi setelah butuh dan nyari…susah banget … Tapi lumayan buat pengalaman nih .. hehe
Kenapa saya bilang susah … Begini ceritanya ..

‘Ta pikir di PVJ ada lah … La wong mall sebesar itu masa sih ga ada …
Dan ternyata emang ada … tapi harganya … hahaha .. (pas di tokonya dan dikasih tau harganya kita belagak cool and cuma bilang “o hmmm .. ” .. tapi dalem hati “buset !!!!” ..
Pantesan tu toko di “jagain” kaya gitu … haha ..

Akhirnya atas saran temen coba cari di BSM (kenapa ga kepikiran nyari disitu aja dari awal ya .. bodoh .. padahal kan itu deket ama rumah .. ) .. Dan ADA !!!!!!
Milih..milih..akhirnya plek ke satu tapi …. ga ada ukuran yang gedenya .. (yah … sedih bener ..)
Setelah milih2 akhirnya bisa netepin ke satu pilihan juga … dan dapet deh .. Alhamdulilah ..

Semoga dia seneng ama cincin itu ya … Amin ..
Yah tapi kalo dipikir2 sih pasti dia bakal seneng..orang itu kan yang ngasih “orang yang dia sayang ..” ..cie cie
Yah semoga deh … semoga langgeng hubungannya .. amin amin

PS : perasaan waktu itu posting ini udah ke publish deh … tapi koq jadi ga ada ya

i wish that those smile were for me
i wish that those encouragement were for me
i wish that those comforting arm were for me
i wish that those warmth look in your eyes were for me
i wish that those shoulder were for me to lean to
i wish that your protective attitude were for me

i wish that i can be the one who can make you smile when you feeling blue
i wish that i can be the one who can give you encouragement when you need one
i wish that i can be the one who can give you comfort when you need it
i wish that i can be the one who receive that warmth look in from you eyes
i wish that i can always lean on your shoulder
i wish that i can be the one who get your protection

but a wish is simply just a wish …

i know that those smile were not meant for me
i know that those encouragement were not meant for me
i know that those comforting arm were not meant for me
i know that those warmth look in your eyes were not meant for me
i know that those shoulder were not meant for me
i know that those protective attitude were not meant for me