Memories

I really like this song ..

Though is sad but it really can touch people’s heart. At least that’s my opinion …

No Regret Life - Nakushita Kotoba

(Naruto 9th ending)

Kono ryoute ni kakaete iru mono  toki no shizuku
Sotto nigirishimete wasureta kioku  nakushita kotoba

I’m holding a drop of time in my hands
I quietly grip the forgotten memories, the lost words

Hitotsu hitotsu omoidaseba subete wakatte ita ki ga shite ita no ni
Iroaseta kotoba wa boku no sugu soba ni oite atta

When I recalled each event one by one, I thought I understood everything
But the faded words were right by my side

Kotae no denai yoru to  hitohira no nukumori to  haruka kanata no akogare to
Tada sore dake wo kurikaeshi  boku wa ikite iru

Nights when I can’t find an answer, and a single drop of warmth, and my longing for something far away
I’m spending my whole life just repeating those things over and over

Kono ryoute ni kakaete iru mono  toki no shizuku
Sotto nigirishimete wasureta kioku  nakushita kotoba

I’m holding drops of time in my hands
I quietly grip the forgotten memories, the lost words

Anata ga omou koto wo  sameru koto naku temoto ni tsukamitai no ni
“Hito” daru bokutachi wa  sono kimochi wo wakachi aenai mama

I want to grab all the things you love in my hand, never letting them cool down
While we, as people, are unable to share that feeling

Kotoba ga hanatsu imi wo  tatoe no nai omoi wo  kotaeru koto no nai kanjou wo
Mitsumeaeba tsutawaru koto ga dekitara ii no ni na

The meaning your words release, an unquestionable love, a feeling that has no answers
If only we could convery all that just by looking at each other

Kono ryoute ni kakaete iru mono  toki no shizuku
Sotto nigirishimete wasureta kioku  nakushita kotoba

I’m holding drops of time in my hands
I quietly grip the forgotten memories, the lost words

Kono omoi wa mune ni shimatte okou

I’ll keep this love in my heart

“Nakushite shimatta…”

I’ve lost you…

Beberapa bulan ini udah jarang (kalo ga mau dibilang sama sekali :P) nulis disini. Bener2 ga ada mood sih. Kalopun ada, pas di depan kompi moodnya langsung ilang dan ide buat nulis juga puff, ilang deh.
Sebenernya ada beberapa hal yang agak aneh (menurut saya sih). Yang pertama, entah kenapa koq jadi banyak orang yang minta diajarin nihongo ya. Padahal kan nihongo sendiri aja masih amburadul banget. Ngajarin orang itu tanggung jawabnya gede euy. Salah-salah bisa gawat tuh. Yang kedua, saya dapet banyak temen baru buat belajar nihongo dan beberapa waktu yang lalu dapet temen baru buat latihan english. Haha, how fun!!!!!! ^_^ Yang ketiga, my period bulan ini koq jadi tambah parah ya >_< Biasanya istirahat sehari juga sembuh tapi sekarang koq ampe 3 hari ga sembuh2. Malah tambah sakit punggung lagi. Waduh >_< Apa semakin tua bakal semakin sakit and parah ya?!

Oh iya, besok udah masuk bulan desember kan. Nah coba buat resolusi untuk taun depan ah. Apa ya ..
1. Harus jadi orang yang lebih sabar dari taun2 sebelumnya. (Ditaro pertama soalnya yang ini susah banget >_<)
2. Harus memperbanyak latihan both nihongo and english. Harus dipraktekin juga loh!!!
3. Nabung nabung and nabung. Itu tetep jangan lupa ya!!!
4. Try to pay more attention to my surrounding. Kalo ga ntar ada yang protes lagi.
Apa lagi ya … Baru kepikir segitu. Ntar ditambahin lagi deh.

My
friend, it’s been almost 2 months that you had to go to that far away
place and until now i am still thinking about you…a lot actually. I
remember the time when you always listen to what i had to say , even
though i know that you actually don’t really have the time for it.
You always give me support when i need it. Especially in bad times.

The
thing that i like you the most is you know that i don’t really like
the smoke that came from your cigarette and you appreciate it. Not
many people do that (well, at least among the people i know), and I
thank you for that. You know, now that you’re not around, i miss
those stupid smoke. I miss talking to you…really bad.

When
can we be able to talk or just hang out like old times? Soon i hope
…

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Minggu kemaren pas lagi jalan pulang, tiba-tiba gubrakkk … jatuh deh … Ga ada angin ga ada badai, tiba2 jatuh. Emang ada undakan sih tapi emang dasarnya lagi bengong kali ya .. Alhasil kaki keseleo DAN sampe hari ini masih sakit… Nasib.. Mau dapet apa ya ampe keseleo gini..Mana kaki masih bengkak lagi..Ya allah tolong sembuhkan kakiku … <praying mode on>

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Today i remember one song that i usually listen when i’m can’t concentrate well..
Here’s the song .. It’s Dashboard Confessional, The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most ..

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and covered with a perfect shell,
such a charming beautiful exterior.

Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes and perfect posture,
but you’re barely scraping by, but you’re barely scraping by.

This is one time, this is one time
that you can’t fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all, or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you’ve built to flee
the places that you’ve come to fear the most
is the place that you have come to fear the most.

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and hidden in the public eye.
Such a stellar monument to loneliness.
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
and perfect makeup but you’re barely scraping by,
but you’re barely scraping by.

that you can’t fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all, or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you’ve built to flee
the places that you’ve come to fear the most
is the place that you have come to fear the most.

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For the past month, I’m reading the last Harry Potter book, Harry potter and The Deathly Hallows. So far the book was great. You can be really into the book so badly that you don’t want to let it go until you finish it. Well, in my case I have to “fight” the urge to finish reading it quickly because I can’t just sit all day reading a book. My employer might “kick” me out of the company. Hehe Not mention my father will also “kill” me if I do that. So, so far I’ve already read the book until page 500 from it’s total 659 pages. Quite a long time to read just a 500 pages, right ? Well, everyday (Monday to Friday or Saturday I mean) I only have about an hour to read the book. It was during lunch hour and a little time before the working hour start. Actually I can read it at home, but by the time I got back home, I don’t have any mood to read it. My whole body scream against it. “Rest rest rest !!!!”

Ok, back to the book, I said the book was brilliant !! Just like Ron always said. (I love the character so much .. ) In this last book, there’s plenty of things that have a connection to the previous books. For example, (it will contain a bit spoiler I guess) when they, Harry, Ron, Hermione, and Ginny, were try to find and destroy the last horcrux, Ginny got poisoned by an enchanted snake during the process. She nearly couldn’t survive because even Madam Pomfrey couldn’t heal her, cause it all dark magic and all. But suddenly Harry remembered something about what Professor Slughorn did when Aragog died. That was part of the sixth book. If I think again, you might also noticed it, anything that happen in Harry’s life or everyone around him, any kind of information they acquired, turn out to be something that might be useful in the future. Just like this one. Because of what Harry remembered, Ginny was saved.

The writer made a great connection between each of the book. Even though you already read it all, you want, or maybe have, to read it again just because you want to find out or make sure of some event that connected to the seventh book. That’s what I felt.
From my opinion the book is worth to be read. Badly !! If you have any comment about the book or want to discuss about it with me, feel free to contact me or leave a comment here. And if you want to read the book, you also can contact me. Who knows, maybe I’ll be able to help you

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Today is just an ordinary day, with my routine in the house, office, and that place…
Sometimes that ordinary day is boring cause there’s nothing interesting happen.
When i get bored, i listen to this music. It’s Vanessa Carlton’s Ordinary Day ..

Just a day, just an ordinary day
Just trying to get by
Just a boy, just an ordinary boy
But he was looking to the sky
As he asked if I would come along
I started to realize
That every day he finds just what he’s looking for
Like a shooting star he shines
He said

Take my hand
Live while you can
Don?t you see your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand

And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary words
Although they did not feel
For I felt what I had not felt before
You?d swear those words could heal
And as I looked up into those eyes
His vision borrowed mine
And I know he’s no stranger for I feel
I’ve held him for all of time
And he said

Take my hand
Live while you can
Don’t you see your dreams lie right
in the palm of your hand
in the palm of your hand

Please come with me
See what I see
Touch the stars for time will not flee
Time will not flee
Can you see

Just a dream, just an ordinary dream
As I wake in bed
And the boy, that had, ordinary boy
Was it all in my head
Did he asked if I would come along
It all seemed so real
But as I looked to the door I saw that boy
Standing there with a deal
And he said

Take my hand
Live while you can
Don?t you see your dreams lie right
in the palm of your hand
in the palm of your hand
in the palm of your hand

Just a day, just an ordinary day
Just trying to get by
Just a boy, just an ordinary boy
But he was looking to the sky

This song bring me a little strength to pass each of those ordinary day ..

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Pagi ini setelah baca blog nya erik, saya jadi keingetan cerita tentang guru yang udah beberapa hari ini pengen saya coba tulis di blog tapi belon sempet juga ..

Guru adalah pahlawan tanpa tanda jasa …
Itu satu penggal kalimat yang dari jaman SD selalu “diperdengarkan” kepada kita. Malah sampai ada lagunya kan ya ..
Tapi akhir2 ini saya berpikir, apa benar jaman sekarang kalimat itu masih berlaku ?
Saya emang sudah tidak lagi berhubungan langsung dengan guru2 “masa kini”, tapi kebeneran saya punya temen, sepupu, sodara yang masih berhubungan langsung dengan guru2 itu..
Ada satu cerita dari sebuah SD di daerah saya, suatu waktu di satu kelas ada ulangan mendadak. Pada waktu membagikan lembar soalnya sang guru berkata, “Ayo coba kerjakan soal2 ini sebisa kalian ya anak2. Hasilnya nanti untuk membatu nilai kalian yang sebelumnya. Tapi yang ikut les mah nilainya nanti ditambah.”
Apa maksud perkataan terakhir sang guru ? Apakah seorang guru pantas untuk mengatakan hal seperti itu kepada murid2nya? Bukankah dengan begitu sang anak tidak akan berusaha maksimal dalam tes itu karena mereka sudah tau kalau nilainya akan ditambah ?
Ada satu cerita lagi, kali ini dari daerah lain di kota saya. Suatu hari pada waktu pengambilan rapot sebuah smp swasta, sang ibu bertanya pada sang guru, “Bu/Pak, apa yang kurang dari anak saya ya? Saya lihat nilainya agak menurun dibandingkan dengan sebelumnya.” Sang guru menjawab, “Bagaimana ya bu..Dia badannya lemah sih..”
Sekali lagi, apa maksud sang guru berkata seperti itu? Bukankah seharusnya seorang guru mencoba untuk mendorong anak didiknya untuk menjadi lebih baik bagaimana pun keadaan sang anak itu ?
Terus terang saya benar2 kaget waktu mendengar cerita itu. Kaget dan agak gemes juga. Apa segitunya ya mereka? Saya bukannya ingin memojokkan guru atau menjelek2kan mereka. Engga sama sekali. Saya tau disuatu tempat disana, ada guru yang bener2 membantu, mendorong, menyemangati anak2 didiknya. Saya sadar saya bisa jadi seperti sekarang juga karena jasa2 para guru2 saya. Lagian saya rasa masih banyak guru2 yang bener2 berdedikasi pada profesinya. Waktu saya SD, SMP, SMA, sampe saya kuliah, ada guru yang bener2 berdedikasi sama apa yang dia kerjakan. Itu semua membuat saya heran dengan cerita2 tadi.
Apa sekarang rupiah bisa mengalahkan segalanya ?? Mungkin itu satu pertanyaan yang jawabannya sudah agak jelas ya, melihat semua kejadian di Indonesia kita yang tercinta ini .. Tapi, yah…sedih banget tau hal2 yang kaya gitu ..

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Semalem nonton film drama jepang yang judulnya “Sugar & Spice”. Kirain ceritanya tentang apa, taunya cuma tentang kehidupan cinta satu orang anak cowo 17 taun. Tapi ceritanya lumayan seru juga sih. Bahasa jepangnya juga lumayan gampang di ngertiin (asal si pemerannya ga ngomong cepet2 :-p hehe ).

Di salah satu adegannya, Shiro, tokoh cowonya, bertanya-tanya, “kenapa wanita selalu membagi cerita tentang kehidupan cintanya ke orang lain ? “. Pas denger, saya mikir, ” emang cowo ga pernah nge bagi cerita tentang kehidupan cintanya ke orang lain ya ? ” Apa ngebagi cerita ke orang lain itu aneh bagi cowo ?

Selain yang tadi, si tokoh cowonya juga keliatannya agak bingung sama arti kata “ya” dan “tidak” bagi cewe. Di ceritanya nenek Shiro, Fuji, pernah cerita ke dia, “Arti kata “tidak” bagi seorang cewe itu tidak selalu berarti “tidak”, kadang bisa berarti “ya”.” Ngedenger itu saya jadi mikir, “Oh ya ? masa sih .. ” Saya aja yang cewe ga terlalu ngerti. Emang iya ya kaya gitu ? Perasaan saya kalo ngomong iya ya iya, engga ya engga. Tapi semua orang itu beda ya .. Entah juga sih ..

Berarti mungkin bener juga ya kalimat yang bilang, “Man are from mars and girl are from venus.”. Kadang (kalo ga mau dibilang sering..) ada hal yang ga nyambung diantara mereka..Ya iya lah ya..
Justru itu yang buat hubungan antara cowo sama cewe jadi menarik .. ^-^

Just a little addition ..

I found a song that might go well with the earlier “wishes” post . . Here goes the lyrics ..

Monita - Kekasih Sejati

aku yang memikirkan
namun aku tak banyak berharap
kau membuat waktuku
tersita dengan angan tentangmu

*
mencoba lupakan
tapi ku tak bisa
mengapa… begini…

**
oh mungkin aku bermimpi
menginginkan dirimu
untuk ada disini menemaniku
oh mungkinkah kau yang jadi
kekasih sejatiku
semoga tak sekedar harapku

back to *

back to **

bila..
tak menjadi milikku
aku takkan menyesal
telah jatuh hati

back to **

semoga tak sekedar harapku..

Wow … terlalu cengeng ya :